Brad loves mindy he said so a little bit ago :-)
yay! Mindy loves brad too <3

Happy Birthday msblackeyeliner!

I'm amused at the apps people are making for the android network for my phone.
There is one that I downloaded that is a mario sound simulator. You touch the screen it makes the fireball sound touch the screen and jump it makes the coin noise. It cracks me up.
And thanks to my free screensaver app I have a kickass screensaver of domo. Its so cute and hillarious
I'm still waiting for a few more useful apps like a flash player.
If I knew how to code and whatnot ide make an app. Alas I'm dumb when it comes to stuff like that.
Although someone made an lj app so I can post right from my phone like a regular post. Although I got full net on here anyway. Now I'm just waiting for tmo to add the 3g network in pittsburgh so this phone will work better.

Well winter has officially arrived in pittsburgh....ugh snow. Its not so bad....yet after christmas it must go.


So yeah I slept through my alarm today and still managed to get to work mostly on time.

My sleep has been all messed up lately

I think I have forgotten what it feels like to be in love and to be loved back...if I ever really was loved in the first place.

Kinda sad once I think about it


The longer I go without it the longer I wonder if ill ever actually find it. Chances are not looking good.

Oh I need to add new tattoo to my christmas list. I've narrowed it down to a few.


I also need a halloween costume idea for mb's party. I dunno what I want to go as. Any ideas would be appreciated

I know its early but here is my christmas list..it might change but so far:

Ipod touch
Nintendo Wii with wii fit
Euphonium sheet music (so i can start practicing again)
a job that uses my degree (once i get off my butt and start looking)
a new bf (but that might be in the works already i dunno yet)
and gift cards for books and so i can buy professional clothes, i don't have much of those and having a new job would require them lol

My list isn't long just has expensive things and things people can't get me lol
oh well.

Ever feel like life is passing you by and you're standing still watching it?

That's where I am right now.

I need to make a change.

At least I have some ideas in might on what to get the ball rolling. Getting started is always the hardest part.

Im just tired of watching life go past without me.

im tired and blah today
my allergies and lack of sleep are not liking me.

i don't want to be alone right now but i don't want to date right now either. kinda odd i know. im just in a very wierd place with it all.

maybe eventually something good will happen to me


oh and why are they called swedish fish? they are red and gummy and tasty, not very swedish to me.

single

dont wanna explain

gonna have a shitty birthday all alone tomorrow..

awesome just awesome

oooooo
so me thinks im gonna stay with tmobile now and not switch companies like i thought. today they announced thier version of the iphone called the G1 its partnered with google...mmmm its pretty i want. only crappy thing pittsburgh is not on the list of cities that have it running on the g3 network so it will still be all slow and crap on the edge network. blah but im sure soon they will add pittsburgh to the list. i hope. cause mindy wants the phone like whoa. and hell it sounds cheaper then my sidekick i paid over 200 for mine and this phone i think i read will be around 180 Woot! if i wait till december i might get a small discount on it since my yearly discount thing will be up..if not i don't frickn care..i want one! yeah im a dork but i have been wanting a phone like this and now i don't have to swtich providers to get one! :)

oh and i can't wait till thursday, this is gonna be a good birthday this year me thinks! :)

Happy Birthday grandma, she would have been 80 this year I think maybe a few years older then that. I can't remember what year she was born. 20 something. I miss her :(

Nfg concert sold out guess I can't go :(

I hope my birthday will be good this year. I have a feeling it will for once ;) we'll see.

I don't remember what I was going to post other then that. Oh well.

gosh ive been so hardcore emo lately
i hate it!
bleh

im too tired to update now on stuff and i should be working, ive been hardcore slacking today..not good.

my bday is a week away and i have no plans. maybe over the weekend something will happen. my one roommate amy wants to come down for the weekend and we can do stuff. but i dunno if my family will want to do anything or even if the guy i started to see will want to do something for me. i don't want to assume he will though..cause thats kinda rude i guess.

this one guy from erie wanted to see me, he was suppose to come down friday then cancelled on me he wanted to see my today but i kinda lied to him and cancelled on him he also wanted to see me on my birthday but i dunno. he seems like a nice guy but i just started seeing adam and i don't want to start a long distance relationship with a guy who lives in erie and who only has mondays and thursdays off. so it just wouldn't work out at all. ide like to be able to see my guy and spend time with him when i want..wow what a concept lol. so i dunno

7 months today.

I had a date today, it went well. We went to the musuem and to a nice little asian noodle restuarant up from the musuem. Yum bubble tea! I haven't had it in forever. Good stuff. Now I know where its at im going back. We sat and talked there for like 3 hrs. Then walked back to our cars.
Good day we'll see. If he asks me out again ill say yes.

And one of my friends is being weird and elusive. Who knows why. Kinda annoying. Oh well. Nothing I can do about it. If he wants to talk to me he will. I can't keep trying.

Wow why should I not be surprised...
Now my saturday plans got cancelled.
Awesome.
So hopefully maybe someone will want to do something if not I dunno ill figure something out I hope.

so nevermind i got cancelled on
surprise surprise
yet another clue that shows no one actually wants to get to know me or is interested. awesome
so now i have no friday night plans
maybe ill take my laptop someone and spend the evening online

Why do I accept dates from people I already know I won't like or im not attracted to. Im too nice and don't know how to say no probably
Bleh, we'll see but I doubt it.
I know who I want, I think, but I already know its probably not gonna happen. I hope maybe saturday when I go out ill have some luck and meet someone
Who knows.
Im sick of being alone. I wanna be freakn happy already. Don't I deserve that?
Ugh
I need to figure out what im doing soon cause I need a new job. Mine is just driving me up a wall right now.

Yay posting from the kinda crappy internet connection on my phone.

Its past 3am almost 4am now..im usually never up this late. I guess that's what happens when your on the phone talking to people so late well one in particular :)

Hmm im def in a good mood though. If I didn't go home tonight I would have met him and hung out with him tonight but there is always tomorrow ;)

I will not jinx it by saying more

i feel like i should update...

eh i dunno what to update

its been a crazy ass week

when it comes to boys..when it rains it pours. i go from not really having any prospects to all of a sudden have a handful of guys talking to me..i dont mind. cause a i wanted a break from dating and b now i am ready to.

that and i was someones booty call last night..but hey i don't mind. cause a i haven't seen him in 4 months, b is is super hot..like crazy hot mmmm and c its damn good. lol but its just sex nothing more..thats fine, i don't want more from him and it probably won't happen again..i dunno though..if im still single i won't say no lol

then josh last night also told me he thinks im the love of his life..wtf? ugh..that bothered me, on all sorts of levels. yeah a part of me misses him..but i know i don't want him, ive moved on, i want more, i can and have gotten better. its kinda conflicting. but just no..that and he keeps wanting to have sex with me..what is this..ugh

i swear im not a whore. lol really im not...

i just want to find someone and be happy. although i just realized today that im scared to commit myself to someone right now. well that im not scared perse..just not 100% ready too..im still enjoying dating and a part of me doesn't want to make any mistakes.

eh im not so worried about it..cause i figure when the right one comes along ill know it and be fine with it.

maybe i shared to much with this post..oh well..only like what 5 people..maybe ready this. lol who still reads this anyway?

stupid lj won't let me buy paid time with my checking account..cause i still gotta get my butt to my bank and order a new bank card cause my atm ate it like..uh months ago..ive been too lazy and or busy to go to my bank on saturdays to go and they close when i get out of work during the week..blah.
i just wanna getmy paid account back..jeez

oh well. soon enough i guess